Final Exams

The week is almost coming to an end........ the date and time of my finals on the 12th of May draws closer and closer..... 

For the first time, I am not looking forward to the weekend... lolx!

Normally, in any ordinary exams, I seem to don´t have such a fear in me compared to this German language exam that I am having this saturday. Compromising of Reading, hearing and writing plus speaking, I am abit worried about my exams. The goal here, is to score B1 for all individual exams, however, my weakest point.... is the speaking. Ahhhh yes, some of you would say, if speaking is a problem, why not speak it at home instead of English all the time?!

Well, I may have married a German, but I still have my daughter and myself who are still very much chinese.... =) I will not give up my entire culture, background and such just because I married a man of a different culture and world. Sure, my personal opinion is that it is crappy to have laws such as this in order to live here, but I respect their laws..... there is a chinese saying my mum used to teach me, "You respect the rules and regulations of the house you visit and stay in". Hence, as I am staying in Germany now, yes, I abide by their law that I need the bloody test done! But you can´t force me and my family to speak German in the family. What we do in our family is our business, not the world, not the government, not other family members. Null..... what we do in our family is only the business of my husband, myself and my daughter.

Oh I can speak German...... but ain´t those official German with all the official grammers intacted - der die das, and all those kind of things ^^ I can do my shopping, I can converse with the shopkeepers, the bus drivers and such, it´s good for me. ^^ at least I don´t have to fully depend on my husband after all ;)

But doesn´t stop me from being worried...... *lolx*

Failing my speaking test, would mean having to re- sit the entire bloody exam even if I scored B1 in all the rest :(

*arrrggghhhhhhh*

One part is saying, lets faster get over it.... the other part of me is saying "help! help!"