August 2011

Its 107am, 1st of August 2011.


Calendar wise, it´s still Summer time here in Germany. Temperature wise.... feels like Autumn is hitting in early this year! Even the trees are shedding it´s leaves already and some, starting to get bald in the tree...... Sometimes, it sure is rather amazing looking at nature this way! 


Time sure seems to fly alot. Seems just like yesterday I was packing and getting ready to leave for Germany with my daughter..... but now, looking back, we have been away from Malaysia for 6 months now! Sure is a long time we have been gone........ Feels so short though.


With us being gone for so long, I still keep tabs on back home... and I find the news of Malaysia rather disturbing at the moment, especially after the Bersih Rally. Now... many who read what I post in facebook, or certain articles that I share here thinks that I have forgotten Malaysia the instant I touched European soil etc (yea I have received these wonderful remarks... -.-) . I find these people who have actually commented and thought of me as such stupid and ironic. First of, no matter where we go, home is where our heart is. Secondly...... I criticize the ironicness of what is happening back home, but doesn´t mean I forget Malaysia or hate it. Malaysia is a great place, but screwed up people who is at the moment taking power too much for granted.... Guess this is what happens when you rule for too long huh? 


I seriously hope... that this doesn´t end up becoming an international affair of sorts as I still would love to go back to Malaysia to see my parents and family... and also to see someone there (though I guess that person wouldn´t even wanna meet me anyways...)  still. My history, my life, my love are all there.... so please, the government of Malaysia... don´t be so selfish and power insane..... and care for the citizens before it becomes every body´s regret......


On a more day to day basis.......
Amelia is entering her 3rd month of Kindergarten here. She´s learnt alot of new German words or short phrases, but not enough to talk a full sentence in German just yet. She´s grown taller and more beautiful...... and like every child, getting naughtier and starts expressing and experimenting on how far her limits are. So now I know the hardships and the pains of being a parent...... I remember how I used to scorn and hated my parents for nagging me..... and now, having my little girl of my own... lolx.... and with the genes of both me and my ex husband in her..... *ROFL* it sure is remarkably hard being a single mum handling her baby! But we are coping fine... even if she has to learn the hard way and her mummy have to cry in pain disciplining her.... we will survive this ordeal together......


Summer break is almost over...... my courses will be starting back once again........ so means I wouldn´t be as free as I am at the moment... though I do hope that the chaos of our new home can be settled fast... hate this... messiness and such in the new apartment at the moment. So disoriented at the moment..... some of the things can´t even be found as I can´t remember which box I packed it into! I think, the only place in the entire apartment that is neatly arranged and furniture and such is completed is my baby´s room! My daughter is very proud of her own bedroom.... as she was the one that decided to paint and design it the way she wanted...... creativity is what she has, although my dad was abit.... hahah shocked.... at the way she decided to paint it! xD


But then again, who should stop a child´s creativity? ^^


Well at least... she has better creativity than me :P