Chinese New Year

The 3rd day of Chinese New Year....... The weather is freakingly pathetically hot... I can barely handle the heat, not even my beloved daughter....

We have been travelling alot during these past few days and eating non stop since the Eve of Chinese New Year. Its amazing how much we have eaten the past few days... *groans* my poor poor hard earned diet and slim body..... stuffed like a stuffed pig.. omigosh.... Somehow I can´t wait till Chinese New Year is officially over and we can go back to our normal lives and stop eating XD

It´s quite a quiet chinese new year this year for the both of us, only venturing back to my father´s hometown and visiting his relatives in Perak and Klang. Haven´t even started on Mum´s side at all. We didn´t go back to my ex husband´s place. Felt not right... especially when the thing hasn´t finalized, nor that the fact my daughter havent seen her father in a year already. Don´t really want to trigger her emotional part once again. It´s painful to see her go thru that once again.

Anyways... this is a good year. I didn´t give any ang paos, or also known as Red Packets, this year. Well.. first of, I´m divorced. Yea, so I have a kid.. but that doesnt mean that having a kid means you need to give... besides, not like the man continues giving after he divorces anyways... so... go figure..... I don´t wanna waste any excessive money on Chinese New Year, especially not when I am no more married... so people out there that wanna ´poke my ass´ over this matter... go do it..... If you really read up your history or whatever you wanna call it, the Ang Paos are given sincerely and not forcefully ^^ So I sincerely will not give... even if I do plan to give... I only give to my peers´ children... So if you are in the same batch as me and not married... sorry babes.. ^^

I cannot imagine, this is the 4th year and my final year of my marriage and it ends at the beginning of the year. With it closes the chapter of my life that I never knew would ever close. With it seals the fate of a 10 year long relationship and love. Moving on, there are many winding roads ahead, some are painful to walk and some uncertain while some roads are already there but many obstacles.

Irregardless of it, I still need to walk down this road, be strong... for the sake of myself and my beautiful growing daughter...

Happy CHinese New Year folks